I have been blogging for almost twenty years and have been journaling for over 40 years. In my opinion, a blog is an informal website, often in a diary-style format that provide a certain commentary which is how I have approached this particular blog. This morning I rewatched a YouTube video of a Brene Brown TED talk about vulnerability and so I have decided to be vulnerable in this post.
At home, I have my 12-year-old nephew. His mom works in the front lines of Toronto Public Health. He is here to keep him safe as the likelihood of her contracting COVID 19 is better than most. The news that we are being fed through her and Toronto Public health is bleak at best. We were waiting on a biopsy from the Guelph Animal hospital regarding my 14-year-old pot-bellied pig. Alas, she died in my arms in our living room on March 20th.
Then there’s me. Despite being at school since September 2017 I have managed to keep my substantial challenges under wraps. Those challenges include
Complex PTSD. (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Complex_post-traumatic_stress_disorder)
Complicated Greif Disorder (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Complicated_grief_disorder)
Generalized Anxiety Disorder (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Generalized_anxiety_disorder)
Fibromyalgia (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fibromyalgia)
Now all of these come with what is colloquially called brain fog (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clouding_of_consciousness) which causes mental flatlining and I cannot recall a damn thing I learned in class. I do my best to adapt, disguise and generally keep it off the radar but I know I don’t always pull it off. Yep…this is me.
It makes it hard to break down my steps and as I painted these four scenes and I forgot to take pictures of my progress. The first thing I did was line art. I did the line art on all four of the "posters". I then went on to the shading and when I was satisfied I did the highlights. Lastly, I put in the text.
I used a combination of brushed that included Kyle's Inkbox Classic Cartoonist, along with a selection of splatter brushes. Here is the result:
At home, I have my 12-year-old nephew. His mom works in the front lines of Toronto Public Health. He is here to keep him safe as the likelihood of her contracting COVID 19 is better than most. The news that we are being fed through her and Toronto Public health is bleak at best. We were waiting on a biopsy from the Guelph Animal hospital regarding my 14-year-old pot-bellied pig. Alas, she died in my arms in our living room on March 20th.
Then there’s me. Despite being at school since September 2017 I have managed to keep my substantial challenges under wraps. Those challenges include
Complex PTSD. (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Complex_post-traumatic_stress_disorder)
Complicated Greif Disorder (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Complicated_grief_disorder)
Generalized Anxiety Disorder (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Generalized_anxiety_disorder)
Fibromyalgia (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fibromyalgia)
Now all of these come with what is colloquially called brain fog (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clouding_of_consciousness) which causes mental flatlining and I cannot recall a damn thing I learned in class. I do my best to adapt, disguise and generally keep it off the radar but I know I don’t always pull it off. Yep…this is me.
It makes it hard to break down my steps and as I painted these four scenes and I forgot to take pictures of my progress. The first thing I did was line art. I did the line art on all four of the "posters". I then went on to the shading and when I was satisfied I did the highlights. Lastly, I put in the text.
I used a combination of brushed that included Kyle's Inkbox Classic Cartoonist, along with a selection of splatter brushes. Here is the result:
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